Gecko died in the milky water

I wake up and feel like not to wake up
Take out the milk from the fridge
Pour the sweety milk out with fat
Pour into my favourite bowl
I don't feel like I am awak, Gecko

Picked the tasty breakfast
The lovely cereal I have made
Gecko was having his morning break
Sleeping inside the paper bag
I woke him up and I don't mean to do
Geoko can't swim in the milky water pool
He kept shaking his head and much as he could

He drowned in my morning cereal
Gecko died in the milky water
He thought he should not have too

I should not give all of these.

I should have to save them for myself.

Please don't devote anymore.

They are not for granted

Feel blessed

I don't want to keep telling everyone about my study and life over and over again if it bores you. But this time I am really surprised about the things happened in my study recently.

Even I still got no luck to have a successful interview for another job in almost one year time, I've already felt blessed about my exam result in last term. Last firday, I received my transcript by post and I just can't believe I really did it. Finally I got a really favorable and positive result from the exam.

When you are too lucky of something, there is always something lacking of. They can be care, love and peace. I understand very well with the time I spent in last two months. I also found out things must have to keep changing. If they don't change, they will be forgot and not be treasured. Peopl will only take it for granted.

愈了解人類群體社會的複雜模式，便愈覺生活總過份政治化。我所說的「政治」是那些污穢的「亙利」關係。這同時包括了對弱細社群的欺壓，及對大眾或第三者利益的剝削。其餘的人只能夠接受因「政治」而產生的種種不公平現象。

「政治」當然只能被強者控制，意即那些了解「政治」的「好處」的那一群才能有機會從「政治」中取得利益。最可鄙的是透過「協助」弱勢社群，而不在於對協助弱群們的成效，但目的卻在於取得產生「政治」利益要素的假「知識份子」。所有「推動力」子污虛有，所有「理念」實屬空話。

近日工作量較早前減少了不少，故有空閒時間閒時多瀏覽網頁，不竟它是最好的知識平台之一。

今天特詳細瀏覽艾特溫的wordpress，也一一瀏覽他的「我的最愛」。當然對他的支持深覺榮幸，我的出現只在於我是他的朋友。發覺他改變了不少，應說他的生活有點改變。當然與他聯絡減少才會導至「今時今日」的「發現」。嘩然他的所有「我的最愛」對我而言確實是的過分藝術，當然有些的確是很值很欣賞。

本人向來對於一些內涵無幾，卻高調自稱為「藝術家」，並自以為擁有高賞「情操」的人抱有微許反感。我想是與他們的「lifestyle」或生活模式及態度有關。其實應以整個過程來衡量「這」為藝術，還是以「它」的「outcome」來衡量為藝術呢？

就今天而言，要成為以做創作為生(不是維持生活的那種)，或以它為工作的確並不困難。

我想的確很多人在做藝術。

p.s. 「藝術家」並不包括艾特溫的「我的最愛」!

在此祝福他的IMAC唔好咁早死。其實我自己部嘢都只係久延殘存。

Quotation of the day

「人們願意看見自己不願遭遇的悲慘故事而傷心，這究竟為了什麼？一人願意從看戲引起悲痛，而這悲痛就作為他的樂趣。這豈非一種可憐的變態？一個人越不能擺脫這情感，越容易被它感動。一人自身受苦，人們說他不幸.；如果同情別人的痛苦，便說人有惻隱之心。但對於虛構的戲劇，惻隱之心究竟是什麼？……

於此可見，人們歡喜的是眼淚和悲傷。但誰都要快樂，誰也不願受若，卻願意同情別人的痛苦；同情必然帶來悲苦的情味。那未是否單單由於這一原因而甘願傷心？」

四月真有使人透不過氣來的感覺。當然夾雜著消磨人類意志的不幸能把緊餘的志氣拖垮。立地望著無望卻不能停止追趕的人生，誰也只好用最積極的方式來參與。繁瑣的工作及上一連串的考試及功課限期，真的使人討厭那般「非人的生活」，但我絕不會抱怨生活。這本就是「人的生活」的其中一種模式，這能稱得上「非人」麼？

在滿足別人的需求與個人要求的同時，必不能漠視唯一能保護自身權利的所謂「自由」。「自由」啊﹗我真的要感慨「自由」對人而言實在不值一顧。誰能取去我的「自由」？只有那些滿心只有抱怨的「人類」才有對「自由」的「失去」而感到憤怒及感嘆。我的問題實與他人無異，但我也同樣明白到發問的同時並沒有認真考慮其價值或對其自身的價值。最糟是強要把自身的問題化作群眾的問題，而透過被認同而取得快感。這不能帶領我們進入真理，卻使我們墮落。

Many questions

Eventually it goes to the end. It should be two years later than what I supposed to be and I know it would be a lot different if I haven't made that mistake. I could have to go much further than what would have to be.

I used to have a lot of questions. Sure I understand everyone would have the same questions. He may be right. There is actually no answer. That's why he told me human would be better to not be too curious instead of too curious to make them run far away from the truth and something that is here since the very first day.

School Life

Just have a little short update about my life and what is happening.

The first thing I think of it the benefit I had lost for long time. Student ID card brought me benefit to entitle student special -half price or more to take MTR everyday. I still think it is a blessing as I have to pay at least 1000 less than before. I believe a lot of people would be jealous.

Back to the study... finally I finished all of my day school and started to back to the normal schedule to work from 9 to 5 everyday. It is also a blessing that recently only has a little work at office. So come up I have a lot of time to do revision or homework... and especially has time to look for a new job. So... I just did an interview yesterday. I really hope it works out!

Last week was some surprise. I found out I have full mark on two exam. I am now being the number one student among the class. It is crazy. I haven't tried it since primary school life. I am not trying to be arrogant but it just made me feel like I am still someone suitable for study. I do think it made me to work harder on the exam today. This is the first time I feel like I can finish all of the questions within these 10 year times.

Also... I have been busy to scan my negative film about the photos I took through this summer tour in malaysia and thailand. I really like some of them and make me want some hard copy.

Better call it a day! Tonight will have sweet dream... I guess