Really flattening?

I opened a book and kept reading page by page... I started to ask myself what I am looking for. I read all those words and remeber the film and the words. I believe we don't need it anymore. People will not lose in translation anymore.

yes, the world is flattening. It is ashamed we are too late to know and took all problems as problems.

People just always like keeps blaming what is not enough and what is too much.

"Lovely weekend"

Today is going to be the first lesson since one and a half year. I am quite worried how to make me not to lose another chance to finish something I have to do. Yes, that's what I have to. Until now, I still don't know if I picked up the right thing but it is still better than none.

It is happy to see my improvement. Just quite obvious. I hope I would not be ended like how it used to. I still can't imagine how I can manage two jobs, one practice and four lessons per week... and the time to spend with my family.

This thursday my daddy went back to hosptial again and finally finished all operation that he should make. I felt so sorry when I see all those blood. I just promised him to bring him to Macau - the place he grew up. I am sure there are too many differences since his last tour. The house he grew up when he was young has already broken down. The demolition frees the space out. There was many plan about how to use this land... but there is none really worked out. I think no one would want to see the fortess to be blocked by a hotel over 20 flats. Now, I just hope the door would still be there before we go.

Anyway, ready for school

No more news for Laos...

Dream

Everything I do is to make my dream comes true.

I used to think I changed but I know I am doing right.

Dream is still on my mind.

Who knows? It is just ahead.

Bad news

There are too many bad news in this 2007 January.

Work has started to be really busy since there are too many people to do the registration. I have to sit 9 hours per day as there is no break with continous income document... enquiry and screening. I still don't know why this kind of registration would exist as I understand how usless it really is. I only think of if the government is really poor from the financial deficit. Sometimes I feel ashamed for many people who have been taking adventage from all thought worst off but they would never pay any tax or do any contribution to this city. There are many lies...

These few days I was really in trouble of too many things to be handle... and too many concern. It really makes reconsider about how a life should be. Most of time we are in dilemma. I feel so sorry for those people who don't even have choice. They have too many burdens and got locked.

This week... my dad is finally willing to try going back to hosptial and prepare for his operation. When I look at his face and can see the beauty. The beauty that I always respect. A nice man... sometime was not a good father but he is one. There is nothing more important than making him to have confident and stand up once again.

Finally, Laos trip would not really happen even ticket is booked. It is to declare I am going and ready to back to school. School is like a promise. I don't know if it can make my life better and give me more opportunity. I am not so humble and finally understand what the life really is. I have to compromise a little to fullfile and to be someone responsible... to someone love you and to relieve their worries on you.

I just hope I can spend my days better and try to keep that in mind. There are only two years that I must have to overcome. No one would know you will be alone or have someone around. Just not ask for it.

I feel better after recovering from emotional period. I can't believe it has been a month. At those time... your life sucks. And now, I just want to wait until my dad recoverd and lets take a train ride to china together. This is one of his hope... I just want to complete it as a daughter or for someone you love especially when you can't see too many days for someone.

One Year Ahead

There is nothing more relaxig than having a couple of weeks and run out of Hong Kong. Actually not Hong Kong but your job and the schedule I get used to.

Having a free tickets offered by Airasia, this time we are planning to go to Laos or would probably across Thailand and Malaysia too but it is not the point.

I still remember there was a spanish lady she picked up her knapsack travel all the way from Spain to Southeast asia. She said Laos is one of the most wonderful country she had ever been to. The people are innocent... Zero commerical and bring you back to the original Southeast asia.

Beside this plan ahead... I still think I have a little plan for the rest of this year but it is really far and untouchable.

If I can come back to your arm

These few days... I started to be a really sad one. Really sad about something we don't have to worry to early or always too late for someone. I tried to ask myself if I really have to know the answer or we can't even get any answer through the day we are living or being a entity.

It becomes terrible when you are alone or there is too silence... you keep shivering and tear fell down from your eyes without any reason. At that time, I start to know human is weak and weak itself in some extend. More I slow down more I want the peace come to me. I also start to believe how difficult when you want the tranquility but its just hard to happen.

Stuipd is... these few days were filling up with the old tv series program " Band of Brother"...

Hope everyone is having wonderful time.

Please give me more sunshine... I think I can save me from these bad days.

Back to the real world

After a little short break, as a man, in Hong Kong, a simple and ordinary one, you have finished and flied back to the real world. The days without work and waking up late, it can only like the blossom, short and flourishing.

Happened to be some lousy weather, foggy and rainy most of the time, 6 hours daylight in a day making me so lazy. It is just the way how should spend the holidays. It is always not too much to spend time for traveling from city to countryside.

Without under any comparison I would never admire some artists how much they did to breakthrough and how incredible the creature they made.

More I see to be more I doubt, to be more uncomfortable.